And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.

"Dun live ur life on someone else" - Fail.

2011-02-27T18:36:00.000-08:00

Probably, u might have experienced living ur life on someone else. Wat i mean is, all u think is for the others around u..out of love of course. But have u ever think of the purpose of u doing it? Whether it's for their own good, etc. Well, i did. I love to help around. Hate to say tat sometimes im being used, which is normal for every kind person.

At first, i would like to give up on it. I mean, think bout it. Have they ever help u back?? Do u get any benefit? How did they treat u in return? These questions.. will fail u. haha. I'll tell u why. When u help, do u help wif love or wif a hope of getting a return? Frankly, most of us help bcoz we're hoping for a payback. I think tat's entirely dumb(pardon my language). Whether u knew it or not, the person whom u've help throughout ur years or days on earth have in any way, enlighten them. ALWAYS REMEMBER: "No one is useless in this world who lightens the burden of another." - Charles Dickens.

Tis is why i think tat helping one another is vital in tis world. When u fail to help, u'll automatically be categorize as "selfish", unless u're UNABLE to do tat. Well, UNABLE means a lot of things. Check for urself: "Are you disabled?";"Do u have insufficient food to eat?";"Do u have any shelter?";"Are u too poor to give out even few cents?";"Are u not capable?". I hope these helps you in deciding.

Someday, when u're sick n gonna leave the earth n meet the LORD, u might reflect on who u've help, have u been using ur love n sincerity to reach out for others n so on. Those who din help will regret when their days are numbered. Live ur life as meaningful as u can, for u'll never know ppl might help u back in future. thank you.

omg... everyday sleep at 5/6am!!!

2010-09-16T08:58:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! haha. long time never update~ XP sory!! haha.

Anyway, this month is a month of miracles.. why?? I began to understand lots n LOTS of things tat are vague in my past... personal to subjects.

Good news is... i will persevere to write in this blog for my uhmmm.. fans. (Well, today i've not much to talk bout.) But whoa... quite tired internally.. imagine sleeping at 5am or 6am for a week!!! thx to raya... But i reli appreciate tat i've found sumone to chat wif me lol. still kind i can say..great fren... like big brother.(im the eldest in family T.T) i dun plan to do inspection like past...it's stupid i know. haha.

Btw, i began to suspect something mystery is happening in my room... hmmm... wth is tat.. always disturb when i sleep.

Lol. Do u guys dream bout ur relatives or frens around u??? haha. i do. kip dreaming bout them. if i see u once, i'd be sure i'll dream of you. lol. Recently, my dream is coming true via time. some dreams are meant to be true.. must be a sign uh?? haha.

Anyway, gtg now.. coz i nid to attend tutorial 2molo(im in college already... yea. this blog is VERY OLD-since secondary). primary oso got i guess... may be tis one.. i edit it so many times till i loss count. BYE!!! Kip on commenting.. in wateva language XP. no worry... i'll translate it myself. haha.

Cheers~
D.ChAn

Wat a HECTIC DAY~~!!!

2010-07-20T12:27:00.000-07:00

HAHA!! hi ppl!! long time no see... err... write..=.= i was bz wif my new laptop... those program stuffs.. uh-oh. headache... anyway.. thx 4 those who support the previous spanish post. thx so much.. (i've RE-COVERED good news!! =D ) anyway, im looking for the game plantvszombies together wif crack file.. anyone have suggestion? >.> coz im gonna go crazy looking 4 it!!!! hehe.

Uhmmm... sry.. i'll be updating my blog a lil late nowadays coz have to prepare myself to study at sarawak.. (far 4 u, not me). anyway, more philosophy will come as life goes by. For now, let us reflect on tis tranquil post i've prepared:

     Have u ever look in the air, or moon and take a deep taught bout how life and friends, family, everythg has done to u?? i mean, how it changes u?? OR maybe, how GOD works HIS miracle in ur life??

     Well, I have friends tat change my life and most importantly, GOD has show HIS LOVE 4 me throughout my life. I've always live alone, at least i call it. My heart and soul was not rite and always lonely, 1st glance into me was emptiness... Before i became a Christian, I do bad thgs like stealing, and etc. also, i've bad intention in every thg i do/plan. REvenge and stuff like make ppl in trouble kinda thg.. Of course, all this is unnoticeable.. Im a good kid in skool ya know?? Life changes when i shifted skool........

     I shifted to a new skool, means new life. but still doing the old immature stuff... uh-oh. the prob is im not feeling sick n tired of committing those sins. God bless me... i always say.. When im in my Form 2, a friend of mine told my mom bout the *good news* which means bout the true God. I uhmmm... kinda blur tat time. I juz follow my mom n my friend.. we when to church 4 years...

     Thgs started to change gradually. My attitude n behaviour... whoa... totally diff from be4 i met GOD!!! My mom who used to beat her children all up badly, also changed.. talk bout tis, she hasnt been beating us for years!! i mean majority, minority is once in a blue moon now.. thrown most of her "precious-devil" canes(yeap... she had more than 5 of them) away... Im so glad =D She tried to talk to us more n also understand us more.... On the other hand, me n my siblings give her a lovely-obedience attitude. Take thgs into consideration n NOT 2 upset her- her scoldings is still unchangeable.. Once u get it, it;ll rewind like a tape recorder. *sigh*

    Thought bout wat GOD has done>??? HE ans most of my prayers!!! Can u imagine??? I wanna study in sarawak, but we(my parents and i) nid to fly there 2 check out university there... prob is we'd have to waste more flight money. I prayed hard and to my surprise, THE LORD has gave me a place in my NATIONAL SERVICE in one of the camps in sarawak which is a 45 minutes drive 2 the uni!! when my parents reached there, another miraculous sign was, a lorry driver told them how to go to the remote NS camp!! yeah... road to my camp will spin ur head rgt round n round XP After tat, GOD make 2 of my camp trainers, i truly believe, they offer to help us-my parents and i to bring us to the uni. we're so HAPPY!!! Cant imagine the joy GOD was ANSWERING MY PRAYER TOTALLY!! so awesome...

     OF course, the miracle din stop there. Despite the trainers bzness, they oso offer to take me back to camp so tat my parents can fly back to kl. i mean, who would be so kind to do it without a single cent??? anyway, my parents gave them some money as treats for their kindness.. Now, the LORD has oso send me a guy in service department in the uni to help me set thgs up for my hospitality in sarawak during study.. AND ITS ALL DONE!!! haha!! PRAISE THE LORD 4 His goodness!!!

     I dunno bout u guys, but i am DEFINITELY SURE tat GOD is always wif me and always AHEAD of me, to guide me and lead me in my life. Providing me the supports i nid n everythg. I hope tat u guys will pray n i WILL pray too tat he will search 4 u all ONLY IF u'd OPEN ur HEART to HIM. Amen.

La amistad y la BFF. ¿Qué significa para usted?

2010-02-18T01:12:00.000-08:00

Yo no sé acerca de la mayoría de ustedes. Creo que la vida es un poco injusto para la amistad. La amistad puede crecer tan fuerte que la obsesión se lleva a cabo. a veces, un fallo de cualquiera de las partes podría provocar disensión entre fraternidad. Algunos, por otra parte, en realidad hacer que se conviertan en lo BFF.

Triste para mí, ¿eh? No tengo ni qué tan siempre BFF. A menudo la gente me preguntó:

XYZ: "¿Tienes un mejor amigo?"
me dijo: "no. BFF no existen para mí."

XYZ: "¿Por qué? Me refiero a que no se encuentre uno o qué?"
me dijo: "Bueno, yo la última vez. que es una mierda total, porque así lo pidió me abandono. nunca duran mucho, como de costumbre".

XYZ: "Uh .. eso es triste. ¿Usted realmente entender lo que es BFF? Como en lo que es BFF para usted?"
me dijo: "Para mí, BFF es un poco como él / ella, es muy, muy cerca de vosotros, y estará allí para ti no importa qué. No dejan a usted como si usted es una basura, a menos que los hacen hacerlo. Normalmente, BFF no lo hacemos, no importa lo malo que es. Son realmente un animador y un gran apoyo. Bueno, yo no creo que haya hecho algo para asustar a mis amigos de fuera. Estoy muy útil en mi camino ya. Justo que nadie aprecia como de costumbre. Puede ser 1 o 2. "

XYZ: "Yo veo ... puede ser que no son tus verdaderos amigos?"
me dijo: "si usted dice que no, lo que significa decir que no voy a tener amigos en todos! Bueno, lo dijo así, tengo amigos, amigos que no les importa a mí, lo único que hacen es venir - toma de ir clase. ¿Ves?? tengo un montón de amigos tontos. Haz algo por ellos por amor y que lo pague con piedras. Yo no espero ningún pago sólo que la actitud. Bueno, admito que no soy bien en los temas. Algunos realmente hablar de juegos, porno, estudios, etc Bueno, no lo hago muy bien o conocimientos especializados o incluso el amor hablando de esto porno cosas. Peor aún, chicos tema, los juegos, yo soy como el peor? gracias?? a mi madre. Mi vida entera es aburrido, blanco y negro. Nadie va a como una persona como yo. aburrido. ¿Crees que se puede encontrar una BFF que puede soportar esta vida suya??

XYZ: "Está bien, entonces, ¿crees que puede hacer algo para traerlos de vuelta? Como en fijar su amistad??"
me dijo: "Yo realmente no lo sé ... Lo he intentado lo mejor posible. Tal vez no se han destinado a las personas cercanas a mi alrededor."

XYZ: "espera, su familia no está cerca de usted???"
me dijo: "no .. no tan cerca como se pueda pensar. Entre los hermanos, sí. Podemos hablar de casi cualquier cosa con ellos. en cualquier lugar que vayamos, nos atenemos a la otra. Dado que la mayoría de las veces, todo el mundo es extraño. Mi hermano y i son a tiempo parcial artista intérprete o ejecutante, por lo tanto nos encontramos con un montón de gente, especialmente la gente de Outstation. Bueno, simplemente decir, son capaces de hacernos hablar pero no de obligaciones. Creo que el lugar más lejano que se fue a Sarawak. Lo siento. .. fuera de tema. En realidad estaba esperando encontrar una BFF un día, que realmente se siente como mi hermano o hermana. Esperando, significa que todavía estoy atrapado en mi propia jaula solitaria."

XYZ: "es su personalidad bien? Como en lo que molestó a nadie antes? Esto podría afectar a su amistad sabes?"
me dijo: "En verdad comprendo lo que quieres decir .. creo que lo hice durante SMSed. Pero no acechar, supongo. Así que encontrar más información acerca de una persona que me interesaba. mi personalidad? depende del individuo. algunos le guste, algunos tal vez no. Estoy realmente formar un lado buen chico. disciplina. Sólo rabia (muy muy muy pocas veces, soy un hombre muy paciente) y sobre-reaccionan a veces (aquí. .. la gente normalmente no me gusta). Pero estoy de tren y nació de esta manera. Justo ese día, cuando con mi amigo .. uhmm, CK y MK. Bueno, antes de la fiesta, como en unos pocos días antes de la fiesta, CK todavía la respuesta de mi mensajes, hablar, etc Luego, durante el partido, todo el mundo los juegos de azar (es CNY, duh ~) y me gusta la soledad, observando, no unirse. La razón es porque mi hermana estaba allí junto a mí. Es malo para un hermano para jugar frente a de su hermana. Mi familia, nosotros los hermanos, especialmente nunca jugar con dinero real antes, ¿ves?? Así que de repente .. espero que comprendan."

XYZ: "Wow, eres realmente un buen chico. ¿Piensas alguna vez / intenta cambiar para sus amigos?"
me dijo: "Sí, claro. pero me temo que no puedo. Cuando las cosas llegan, sólo hay una posibilidad de que usted puede hacer. Después de eso, tendría que esperar a que pase por el nuevo. Pensé que el suicidio podría ser mejor. Por eso, ellos vendrán a visitarme por última vez, ¿ves? imaginar la sala de hospital llena de todos mis amigos. haha. Bromas solamente. Nunca va a suceder en el camino. Me gustaría hacer algo si que, ya sabes me daría otra oportunidad de hacerlo."

XYZ: "suicidio?!?! NO. Eso no es bueno! Terminar con su vida siempre lastimar a otros."
me dijo: "le hacen daño a causa de mí?! hmmm .. yo no lo creo."

XYZ: "Bueno, eso depende de lo cerca que están con ellos. Así, esto es todo por hoy a nuestro cuestionario. Pero me gustaría decir, es posible que sufren depresión grave, la confusión y la enfermedad psicológica. Tus amigos deberían tomar nota de su miseria y problemas. "
me dijo: "no te preocupes. recé todo el tiempo y se han recuperado de esta enfermedad. por lo menos, me gustaría disminuir los problemas. algunos lo hacen tomar nota y, obviamente, algunos no le importaba en absoluto. Estoy bien con eso . Una cosa más, no siempre le digo a la gente acerca de mis problemas. Mi mente es muy fija también, cuando digo que no quiere decir no. que es lo que estoy de tren, mientras que para todo esto. A veces en la noche, cuando estoy estresado , sólo voy a tomar un poco de sangre antes de dormir. Verás, yo piel mis labios cuando no estoy en un estado de ánimo, subrayó arriba o tan enojado que no arremeter contra nadie, sólo por diversión / sed también consiguió. Tal vez usted me llama loco o demente, no lo sé. "

XYZ: "oh .. ok. Eso es muy perturbar con sangre. Espero que usted recibirá una BFF y al final de su muy miseria y problemas tan pronto como sea posible. Para sus amigos por ahí, por favor cuide de él, bien. De c Ourse, encontrar un amigo es fácil, pero para obtener una BFF es realmente tan difícil como encontrar una aguja en un pajar. Gracias. "

Kinda like an interview or something. Even Kriss Allen's song - Live like We're Dying brings a deep meaning into our life. Thx Kris. We must always appreciate and care for others around us, our love ones, friends and family, etc. Because we dun know when they'll go. Better be sory than regret when they're gone.

Happy CNY.... Comes and go.

2010-02-14T05:13:00.000-08:00

CNY was nvr excited to me.. Let's see.. I got like RMXX oni. The rest is for parents(parents know y). I dunno, for most ppl, chinese especially, tis occasion is splendid. Me? Boring.. no offence. So, well, be4 these, at least, they're ppl of love still around you but today, 12pm they juz disappeared, vanished!! Of course, cant blame them, im the one tat's not close@good with anybody. Even if i was, who cares??? Did anybody remember wat i've help u through in ur prob, how i solve a silly-terrible friendship tat's totally not my prob!! God knows. Maybe i've disappointed u, scared u for not joining in tat CNY fun activity. NVM, im used to it. Sry.. i get it. Im a wind rite? Come n go. I've a family tat dun und a teenage's feelings n lifestyle. HAha. Well, at least teacher's the oni one who can und me. Exasperated by parents during hols, events, occasions, almost EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!

Cant i have a normal family? Sumtimes, i'd look below at the 4th floor, any place high enough, n asked "will die ah if jump dwn?" My classmates, the saw me most of the time looking below wif hollow, lifeless eyes. I thought tat by suicide, i wouldnt suffer much. Base on my background n some probs, u probably, by now should've said "I think tis guy is facing a serious depression." If not, u'll think i'm an AS but LOA i supposed. Who would've see wat my real life was? I'm always trying to cheer myself after all thgs tat've inflicted on me. A person like me; lonely, lifeless, solitude, cool, sumtimes expressionless, scary, moody, emo at times, crazy2, yada yada. At times, i thought of running away from hme. But it's a stupid thg wasnt it? Where can i live??? Wat's weird is tat even my frens said i should've done it. They nvr think tat i've no place to live. Freedom is yet to unfold in my life. I dun share sumthg common in ppl simply bcoz im growing up in a TOTALLY DIFF environment from wat ppl of my age suppose to. Concern? Dun be. Who would concern such traumatic ppl like me, huh??!!

Until u understand me, i might be gone from tis world. I've always wanted a "family". Tat's y i treated u guys like my brothers and sisters, even at times u get me wrong, lash at me, hated me and etc. Frankly speaking, im reli jealous of those birds flying above our heads everyday. I eman they're juz... uhmm.. free. Haiz... Pls pray tat i'll get out from my cage n find a flock of family tat i can fly together one day. Seriously, i dun mid ppl calling me Dick or wateva, as long as it doesnt "lock" me. - FATAL.

L.O.L.X

2010-02-08T22:39:00.000-08:00

I cant believe my computer is so cacat nowadays... Even the connection oso cacat. Btw, hi ppl. long time no see. I couldnt believe my eyes tat my counter is rising even though i nvr touch tis blog for years??? ;D

Anyways, CNY's coming. Even PYP is busy. i say my group Araunah is having a BBQ+Swimming at my friends hse. I got to know tat most of u(i mean the ex-form5's) are shaking legs at hme! so, i've invitedand inviting most of u to join us in our Petra Youth Production in my church. Always welcome newcomers. haha. So, if u wanna come, comment me. or juz leave a post in my chatbox. OR send email to me.

my email: dongdongdong71@yahoo.com

cheers,

Derrick@rick

FRIENDSHIP REFLECTION

2009-10-17T23:04:00.000-07:00

I know tis is a little weird, but... since my last time and sight on u guys was during SPM, I will take tis opportunity to express my thought which I've kept for years... ONE BY ONE... <> Plus, if in the future... when I leave u guys and the world... This could be the last message of me to each and every one of u...

IVAN CHEW -> The first time I saw you, I saw you as a guy of attraction. I'm sure majority have the same thought as I am. Noe? Perhaps you've achieved a requirement of a "perfect" friend. No matter how much you self-praise urself, u still have friends surround you... dunno why. Anyway, you're the only one who can tolerate me among the 3 of you(KY, ZH and u).. Thx for helping me out when I'm scolded by KY and ZH for (u know...) Lol. I appreciate it a lot. Just a lil' comment, you should change ur attitude to be more helpful in times of trouble juz like how ppl treat you when u're in trouble... I remember during the Moral project, last day where u guys nid to hand it to Pn. Noria. Do u remember?? ZH and KY are asking for ur help adn u ignored them greatly. Pls Ivan. Dun do tis to ur friends. I'm sure you'll get more ppl around you if you can stop or lessen ur self praise too. Pei Sun always say "Self-praise is a no praise." K?? =S

KEE YI -> Perhaps you're a good brother in our group. Although you always scold me, but I've always learn sumthg. Thx. I still remember when we're in Form4, you thought me one of your concepts in life I suppose:"stay out of trouble." Still remember you told me, "Derrick, dun care wat ppl do. It's not ur business. Dun give urself into the trouble." Actually I was juz trying to help.. but problem always come about. May be u've forgotten. But you've make me think twice when you wrote the essay abour LOVE. Seriously, I never expect sumthg original like tis from u. Bravo i should say! When I read tat essay, I felt touch and a lil' terasa. Tat's why I kept asking you to put it on ur blog so tat I can read it as often as I can... it's an art. Oh bro, thx for lending me ur Ipod too.. You've fulfill my hope and dream to own an Ipod for sooo long.(eventhough I never own it, but I get to touch and hold it for very long I can say. TQ.) Of course, when there are pros, there are cons. I can say u're a person tat does not appreciate what ppl do for you. You and ZH can be adik-beradik, yat tam2. Haha! Both having the same attitude but ZH better. LOL. I remember in Form4, I help the 3 of you to take you guys' bag down from the 3rd floor(our class) to the 1st floor(IT room). Only Ivan said thank you. U guys never say a word. Juz "orr..". You should change tis attitude. And you'll be a perfect friend if you dun easily hooked with the wrong friend(u know who la...). Lastly, dun hold grudges on anyone for a long period. It's bad for ur health, ya? Hehe. =D

ZHAN HONG -> Uhmm... you are? Wait... have been sitting beside me for about 2 or 3 years i guess.. I can't say alot bout ya.. Since you dun have your own concept. Juz blurr... and a follower(say nicely) I should say. A betrayer when comes to fighting for marks (I'm sure u can recall wat u did to me, dun u??) Plus, you also should be parient to anyone you come in contact with. Remember!! Be patient to those who had been patient with you over the years! A lot of saying and scoldings, but there's learning throughout the process. "When ppl ask you to do, you juz do la..." See? Isn't this a concept of a follower??? Still, u instill obedience in me indirectly. U thought me wat my mom thought me sumtimes.. "Do without complain."(though u did not sumtimes... hypocrite eh?) Last advice to u, I realized and hope u could change to urself is BE LOYAL. Thx for tolerating wif me in ur Hot-tempered attitude. Thx buddy.

MAX HOH -> Hah!! My spiritual brother! Although there was a major problem happened between both of us in skool due to tat... uhmm... embarrassing.. =C, still God answered my prayer tat our relationship was fix juz when u came back from ur F1 camp. If there's an award- giving-day held by me, I would definitely award you with the "Philosopher" medal. I call you PhF(Friends of Philosophy) . Yes, it's true. You've encouraged me in my life quite a lot. When I'm in too high in too high and think everythg can be done my way, you gave me a blow, saying, "Derrick, when you can do sumthg, dun think others can... they're not u.. Everyone have their own abilities, k?? " I also learnt and am encouraged when I'm down with friendship problem- Prom thg. You told me, "Friends are there for you to cherish and treasure. If you dun, you'll get ntg." Thx for everythg bro. Ppl always say I hated you for wat you did to me in the past, but the fact is I salute you more than other thg and anyone else in our skool, honestly. I dunno wat to say anymore.. could be tears rolling down my cheek. Juz wanna give a piece of advice: You should control ur arms... not to simply swing it around or on any gals' shoulder. Not all gals like it.(eg: Joey) Today, I can proudly say tat you are the one God sent to assist me in my life... THX BRO!!! =D

* I WILL WRITE MORE. I WONT FORGET EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU... I'LL WRITE AS LONG AS I'M CAPABLE.. AS LONG AS GOD ALLOWS....

Hmm... Accepting new perspectives~

2009-08-17T19:56:00.000-07:00

Fiuh... Thx for those who has comforted me durinbg my times of trouble.. Rite now, I'm learning to accept diff(way too diff) thoughts and be patient wif my uhmm.. frens.. But.. I know how u guys treated me.. still the worse... however, i'll still be patient(i hope so) as long as i can... Hope some of u dun take this oppurtunity to step my head.. I know i can be good... but U dun wan to see me being emo, rite?? LOL. =.="

Tears of Blue Sky

2009-08-11T03:21:00.000-07:00

Alone in the darkness, I found out the meaning of my tears,

I stepped out toward the place I wished for, but I don't want to hurt anyone,

Today, the wind that crosses the ocean will blow straight toward tomorrow again,

But why can't my heart start moving?

I wonder that fate awaits me,

I don't want to regret having been born,

There is courage within sadness,

I believe that I can find the light,

Tears of blue sky, still falling,

Someday it will change into a smile.

The wind that I chase after at a fast pace slips through between my fingers,

I'm still afraid to trust, but I will no longer linger,

The moon softly taps my shoulder; the water's surface shows the path of the moon,

It makes me forget that I was confused,

Even if there is nothing waiting for me tomorrow,

I still have hands that can make something,

I can even change the fated path,

Now I build up my strong feelings,

Tears of blue sky, overflowing,

The sky will be clear tomorrow.

I should be able to step toward the path

I've looked up to,

I can go anywhere, as long as I don't lose myself,

The tranquility is what I seek,

for this day reflects the better life I'm shooting to.

I knew I am alone... I'll always be...It's different now...

2009-07-30T07:37:00.000-07:00

I thank you for the suppot u guys trying to give... but at times... I think peisun understands how i felt.. Ur sry might mean somethg to me... but sorry... It doesn't work on me... I've receive too much "sorry".. So fake...

Lonely... part of my life... seems to be like a wolf... wandering alone in the forest

searching for partners but find nothin.

Perhaps... I'm wat i am.. ppl cant accept me...

I understand... Mixing with wrong groups, may be?

I still remember the good old days i have with my friends...

but tat was long ago... I dumb those sweet memories into my "rubbish bin".

It's different now...

Alas!! The old cheerful guy has changed into someone serious(i guess)...

Immune to jokes(most of the time)..

Trying to fake his laughters..

To ignore bad times...

Well, it doesn't change him at all!!!

Friends... they only care among themselves,

The rest... i should say, busybody? (u know who u are..)

Prom night wasn't the best thg ever...

It doesnt excite me nor ignite my spirit..,

In fact, think twice, not going's better than going..

I know.. once im there.. i'll be left out.. again..

Since ppl ady doing tis to me in skool,,

I might juz expect the same in prom..

Since i feel like living skool...

I never thought deep bout my friends..

During old crips,

I'll always look forward into coming to skool,

Now..., everything changes..

Supportive or not... I'm expressing myself..

I know a lot of ppl dislike me..

Before i get a post...

i imagine a great num of friends...

But i dun choose tis myself.,

U guys who indirectly forced me to,

Before i agree on taking tis post,

I knew the consequences.. I knew it..

After all, i can afford to lose friends.. rgt?

Oh.. I already lose one of them..

Wat's the diff. losing all?

Perhaps,.. IF im given a new life...

I hope i wouldnt be like tis...

I hope im not being used..

I hope im appreciated...

I hope life would be like a leaf surface..

I hope someone.. somebody will be true to me...

I dreamt often,

dream of ppl around me...

dream of ppl who r good/kind to me..

dream of ppl who are bad to me...

dream of angriness, violent, happy, cheerful,

solemn, cruelty, evil, silence...

dream of all tis thoughts which are still playing

in my mind today.. till now...

One thg one dun understand bout me...

I grew up in a very diff environment...

Im sure its diff from most of u...

I dun get freedom as often i like...

Im tied to rules... discipline...

Maybe a lil' slack here and there...

but still, i'm diff.. ppl dun accept me as who i am.

Anyway, all tis was juz dreams and hopes,

they would never come true...

even they will,

someone muz have started somethg..

I dun believe much on ppl.. wat they say..

they betray their own words...

And my innocent ear believe... Such a fool!!!

From then on, to even trust someone like u guys,

its hard.. although supports are given..

They're all faking it...

But all tis are juz hopes and dreams...

U guys search for fun while i'm still in my cage..

waiting to be released..

Sobbing while delivering tis pathetic message..

I'd never return to reality if i am given a chance..

Ppl in my fantasy world are better than now~~~

Am i not human?

2009-07-20T21:26:00.000-07:00

I am very dissapointed by their act as friends....
Why muz i be treated differently? Am i not juz a norm human like u guys?
Why muz i be treated like an alien?!
I came into tis world to seek friendship and peace,
But all i get's destruction and insanity of heart-stabbing attack
from neighbourhood in class!
Now... i could not tell who's my friend and who's not.
Awhile when rain takes it place in tis serenity, i felt like a tiny ant in tis world...
I'm bound into the abyss of sadness..

I dun understand the way of life...
Is treating others good make me someone different?
To me, i personally think tat ppl treat me differently bcoz im being somone different...
Too kind... too good in "proper speech".. bla3...
I am who i am.. for awhile... i thought tat "Am i born to be alone?" I wander....
ME and my friends... like the heavens and hell,.. a chasm separating us...
No wander... It doesnt seems tat wat i've learned so far are false...
It's true tat im not trustable.... as well as others..

I learned tat ppl are not given any chance in life..
Oni God will... but that's in the spiritual world...
Satan's oni target is devouring humans...
Im not gonna fall into his trap..,
juz tat i will remain quite myself...
May be wat MKY said was true...
I am born to be quite and lonely myself...
Friends now are part of my life(u are rgt.. but)...
Friends in college doesnt make any difference at all(at least i hope not)..
I know i cant join u guys in everythg.. not tat im not good at it...
but i am also a boat.. i'm control by a force.. unlike u ppl..
Im also defensive.. I dont come often and join u guys...
I think tat, makes a difference between my world and ur world.

Why me?

2009-07-16T09:00:00.000-07:00

Why must u aim at me? Is it becoz u and ur bball robots dislike me(all thx to ur influences). Its ur double-edged sword-like tongue who coz u end up suffering in miseries... not me... nor anyone... U r ditched not becoz of who we r but bcoz of who u r, NOW.... ~~~ Solution is wat u nid... but sincerity is wat WE needed MOST.. Hope u understand... U still have 4 months from now to change... actually. Think bout it.

Spoiled.... "Speeding" in class..

2009-06-30T22:56:00.000-07:00

Haih... u guys shouldnt have "speed" in class so much... nanti terLanggar in SPM baru tau...

haih... ah ling!! Y u appear in my group.?. such a spoiler///... XD

Still, ur xpression dint convince me.... u should do wat u say yesterday.... Kip ur words pls~ If u dun wanna lose... any friend of urs... unless u're using us.... me... then... u think urself... i know my primary and secondary cant blend together... but still... i'm learning how to let thgs pass.... we'll talk more... maybe today... not every1 will act like me.. (u know wat i'm saying IF u read tis.)

Hmm... i see he's spoiling u as well... watch out!!! Hisses everywhere......

Hey sam, i'll try to help him... but not too close... ok? hope u accept tis idea of mine.... Well, i guess he dun wanna be too close either. Noe?

Way to Go!!!

2009-06-26T09:14:00.000-07:00

Today... very funny.... We tumpang Zhanhong's car to his hse then to tuition... Well, report card day wasn't tat bad for me after all... For this time... Oh ya... Now we(Ivan, me, Keeyi and jeremy) know where Zhanhong stay liao... hehehe... and we also expect the unexpected.

When we reach there, we play PS2, keeyi as usual... WonderGirls 1st. Oh... i finally get to listen to wonder girls' "nobody" song. quite nice... at least, not like wat i've imagine earlier... based on his singing. Lolx.

We played lots of games, including Naruto(I always win), Bleach(haih.. I taught keeyi well till he beat Ivan), Dragonball(master Jeremy) and football(Zhanhong-2;Jeremy-1) -> suppose Jer win but i dunno... Well, u should see how Jer's face lks like... Serious weh!!!

Then, at 1.30pm, Zhanhong said it's time to leave... guess wat??? Ivan and keeyi said "one more match" on the Bleach game. Pity him... He's late to tuition... thx to Mr.W.Girls and Mr.Perasan. Surprizingly, Kyeli oso going to tuition, summore same subject... She's oso late. Haha!!! so ngam!! So, he got teman lo... IF not her, i dun think Zhanhong will go... He might as well join us in Wong Si Nai. >>skip>>skip>>skip>> After finishing our food, we head to Newplus and wait for keeyi to go LRT(heng dai ma. Lol.)

Oh... be4 this, Ivan's having his short nap in Wong Si Nai. Everyone eat till like so cham... Coz full liao(coz we ate ivan's breads... uhmm.. sounds wrong??) Then, we head straight to Martin, Sejarah-Salihah. Whoa!!! I'm like dying slowly in the class... Can u imagine?? She's teaching bout economic? FELDA, FELCRA, MARA, RIDA... blablabla... Guess wat? Salihah saw Ivan sleeping... So, ivan, for the 2nd time kena quiz... Hehe.

>>skip>>skip>>skip>>

Yay!!! Time to go back!!! I felt like i've revived from death... Fiuhh~ But hor, me and ivan sakit perut later... I think i ate too much of the mentos ivan bought....its like drugs u see... to prevent me from sleeping... or i'll end up like sleeping beauty... bound in dreams forever.. HAHAHA!!(so funny..) Alrighty!! I'll have to end here. More updates coming...(i hope so...)

What a morning "glory"...

2009-06-15T08:04:00.000-07:00

Today... early in the morning... i went to skool and got everybody's face sad... Guess wat? I started with our library's honorable punishment.. the Librarian Community Service(LCS)... Here, i would like to apologize to these few ppl... Not tat i'm mean... i'm juz being "cold"... after the incident... By the way... following up will be warning letters, ya?

1. Joey(sry gal.... gotta be strict a bit... u gotta rememba to pass me the letter nex time..)

2. Nikhita(not tat i'm mean... i did advised u to give me a letter.. u din..)

3. Gaaya("bagus".. nvr even see u for weeks!)

4. To others: U guys deserved it... for not coming for duties....

Well, at least u can say tat Derrick.. H.O.Discipline is doing his responsibilities. Or else, u dun wan me to sit and shake my leg.. Do ya?

It Flows like A River... Down the Stream....

2009-06-11T08:48:00.000-07:00

Haih... another holidays.. passed....
I dream of a lot of thgs... Someone i know... Sad.. happy... U named it..
Well, holidays are full of works...
My time juz flow into the river... eternally condemned... chasm breakage..
I hope time can be reversed... So tht my dreams will stay eternally...
Living in my fantasy... con moto... lacrimoso... agento...

HaPpy BiRtHDaY Br0ThEr DaViD

2009-05-22T02:05:00.000-07:00

Yo bro!! HaPpy BiRtHDaY Br0ThEr DaViD!! Haha.. Wish u again and again.. HAih.. Until 12 o'clock... jking la... Oh.. Am i the 1st?? OH ya...

You're my mentor,
my idol[i'm not the oni 1... some like... j.lee oso said tis(i think he terpaksa).],
my big bro and....
Haha.. friends and brothers 4eva!!! XD

Hope u always smile(should've said tis to myself-.-")!!
Happy 4eva, with Lydia of course!!
AND MaY G0d BlEsS YoU iN YoUR DaiLy LiFe!!!

A PRESENT FOR U...

Here in the midst
of a lonely abyss
A single joy I find...
your presence in my mind.
Alone I dare not climb...
with you I reach new heights.
The tides of life run in and out, and are often very choppy
Look towards the horizon and know that your waters will be calm once more.
You are as delightful as daffodils or a purring kitten,
Let's get together soon,
cause friends like you make the world a special place!
Ours is such a cultivated friendship.

Life is a carnival of fleeting light and dance
but playing, living and laughing together can make it last.
Wonder of wonders is a friend like you!
We have a history,
the kind that reaches far into the past,
and promises that in the future we'll remain friends...
forever.
Here's wishing you, my friend, a world of wonder,
Cast the gift of a lovely thought
into the heart of a friend.
I'm so glad we're friends, again!
Ours is such a cultivated friendship.

Sometimes when we talk,
I begin to feel like so many things are still possible.
That it's OK to believe I can do the things I dream of.
A lot of times I feel so much better after spending time with you,
it's one of the reasons I'm glad to call you my friend!
Thinking of you and hoping you're staying out of trouble.
The stars are in your favor,
true hearts on your side!
Thinking of you with love today--
just like every day!
Ours is such a cultivated friendship.

Nestled in my special corner
I think of good times shared with you.
The sea can wash away
everything but the memories will last,
as ours is a friendship that plays like a symphony...
lasting wherever we are..
Our hearts bind together,
forming infinite bonds--
a never ending friendship.
You make my world a little brighter!
You are my family and my friend,
Ours is such a cultivated friendship.

Cao first!!!

OMG!!! Wat a DIAGNOSTIC!!!

2009-05-20T22:48:00.000-07:00

Wow!! Tis world is full of bombers...

Once the main switch is clicked, things started exploding....

The mines set in the underground...

BOOM!!! Bocor(psss)..

Then, the "coloured air" spread throughout the entire country.....

(Light bulb) Tink!!! We know the answer....

Right ppl?!

From Moky's blog.. I did wat she want me to do...

2009-05-15T05:04:00.000-07:00

Rules and regulation of the tag
All 21 people must do unless you don't have a blog.
Write the names of 21 friends you can think of in your head.
And then answer the questions.
Say you're guessing if you don't know.
But at least guess on all of them.
After doing this, Tag your 21 unlucky friends to do the same.

1. Brother David

2. Ivan

3. Idhzan

4. Joe Yee

5. Derek Lee

6. Max

7. Moky

8. Zhan Hong

9. KeeYi

10. Wai Sin

11. Pei Yuen

12. Khoi Meng

13. Jeremy

14. Angel

15. Janice

16. Wee Keat

17. Wei Jie

18. Renny

19. Kristin

20. Keng Cheng

21. Ann Sin

1. How do you meet 7 (moky)?
standard 6, in the same class, oh.. I terspit the water at her. HAHA!!

2. What would you do if you and 15 (janice) had never met?
wat would i do? i'll nvr become the HODicipline.. jking...

3. What do you do if 20 (keng cheng) and 1 (brother david) dated?
Oh gosh!!! Tat will be against God's will..

4. Have you seen 17 (wei jie) cried?
NEVER. I wonder how he looks like when he cries?? Bwahahaha...

5. Would 4(joe yee) and 16(wee keat) make a good couple?
yes, wee keat will get smarter. Plus, duduk sama rendah, berdiri sama tinggi. LOL.

6. Do you think 11(pei yuen) is attractive?
wow!! i think we'll leave tat for keeyi to judge...

7. What is 2's (ivan) favourite colour?
GREY LA!!

8. When was the last time you talked to 9 (kee yi)?
uhmm, let's see.. 1 day ago. btw, we're in the same class. so...

9. What language does 8 (zhan hong) speak?
wat do u think a typical chinese guy will speak except mandarin or cantonese?

10. Who is 13 (jeremy) going out with?
us(me,zhanny,ivan)?

11. Would you ever date 17(wei jie)?
NO.

12. Where does 18(renny) live?
ok.. he's my younger brother. U think leh..?..?..

13. What is the best thing about 4(joe yee)?
she's the most competitive gal i've ever met. Compete wif the NO.1 in our class.. >.<

14. What would you like to tell 10(wai sin)right now?
hi KEAN SENG!!!

15. What is the best thing about 20 (keng cheng)?
the best bruther.. who'll und u somehow... haha..

16. Have you ever kiss 2(ivan)?
YUCKS!!!

17. What is the best memory you have of 5 (derek lee)?
when i went to his bday party.. gosh.. cant believe he did tat to daphne.. sigh...

18. When's the next time you're going to see 4(joe yee)?
this coming monday

19. How is 7(moky) different from 6(max)?
moky is male and max is female HAHAHA!

20. Is 2(ivan) pretty?
handsome u mean?? pretty when he take tat kinda gayish pic of ESPADA!! =.="

21. What is first impression of 15(janice)?
sore throat.

22. How did you meet 3(idhzan)?
in primary school, he's at the opposite class. Oh ya! Love to see his 360 degree break dance. LOLX.

23. Is 5(derek lee) your best friend?
best friend no, true friend oso no but uhmm... fun friend? Got such thing ah?

24. Do you hate 12(meng)?
NOOOO

25. Have you seen 18 (renny)in the last month?
i see him everyday

26. When was the last time you saw 16(wee keat)?
today and everyday.

27. Have you been to 5's (derek lee) house?
yes. for party.

28. When's the next time you'll see 10?(wai sin)
this coming monday

29. Are you close to 11(pei yuen)?
kinda.

30. Have you been to the movies with 4(joe yee)?
yup!! go to JJ and karaoke!!

31. Have you gotten in troble with 8(zhan hong)?
YES.

32. Would you give 19(kristine) a hug?
err.. if terpaksa.

33. When have you lied to 3(idhzan)?
ooo erm, never?

34. Is 11(pei yuen) good at socilizing?
OKOK lar...

35. Do you know a secret about 8(zhan hong)?
did he even have one?

36. Describe the relationship between 12(khoi meng) and (joe yee).
khoi2 copies homework from joe yee =D USED TO! XD

37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9 (kee yi)?
i really dunno...

39. Have you ever had a crush on 12(khoi meng)?
i'll nvr...

40. How long have you known 2(ivan)?
lets see... since form 2.. i think... 2years and the half.

41. Does 11 (pei yuen) have any girlfriend / boyfriend?
hah? again 11? uhmm.. will she?? haha.

42. Have you ever wanted to punch 1(brother david) in the face?
YES?? AHAHHA! WHEN HE HAUNTS ME!

43. Has 21(ann sin) meet your parents?
yes.. only my mom.

44. How did you meet 11 (pei yuen)?
why always 11 de? close the curtain pls....

45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3(idhzan)?
uhmm.. seriously... no.

46. Do you live close to 7(moky)?
near? walk bout 1hour, 5.5km.

47. What is 8(zhan hong)'s favourite food?
i think is... his mom's cooking?

48. What kind of car does 1(joey) have?
Gen 2 for sure. unless he change it.

49. Have you travelled anywhere with 9(keeyi)?
will i?

50. If you give 14(angel) a $100, what would she / he spend on it?
no idea. save 'em??

How Brother?? Should I go or Not??? Undecided.. and Xwelcome....

2009-05-04T06:43:00.000-07:00

I dunno whether to go or not, I’m undecided and not firm,
Although people want me to go… but in my mind there was always…
Always something to block my mind… a few reasons…
Maybe it’s b’coz of points, it maybe coz of friendship,
Anyhow, I dun think it’s bout friendship…

Sometimes I did like to feel the warmth talking to you… or vice versa,
But… the answer is way too early..
It makes me feel guilty, depressed for wasting your time asking me to join,
What if I dun go? Will that make a difference from today?
Will you guys treat me better? For now you say I nid to social,
Then, next you will be busy, not you alone, everybody…

But I’m like sooo useless… can say soo.. I feel too.. I dunno bout you..
Not tat I dun social, but there’s something.. a great shadow.. an invincible wall…
Blocking my every single sense… Make me feel lonely and to the worst, numb,
Numb in everything, socializing, having fun, make me stressed up, boring,
not happy with things happening around me,
I felt like I’m breaking down.. as if I’m dead like corpse,
I felt like I’m not welcome here.. in this society, in this world..
Since small, young, till now.. Things are getting dull.. No more conductor..
Only insulator remains.. Btw, friends also going to be my insulator of life soon.. or I hope not,

Not like I like things to go this way.. But I’m born like this..
And probably this is the way God wans me to walk,
Even if I were to go to the camp, I might act as if nothing happens, just join,
I always try to make others happy, but I got the bad thing in return,
Why is tat so unfair? This society… full of mysteries and complications… Why?!
What other comforting words can I hear? Besides, only The LORD can saves me…

Saturday, 4th April 2009 – THE PARTY….

2009-04-05T09:07:00.000-07:00

Today is suppose to be a wonderful day..

Everyone is so excited to prepare ourselves for the fantastic party. We(me, PeiSun and SukKhuan) are busy preparing those chickens for BBQ. Almost everyone are busy EXCEPT some who are busy wif FIFFY and MOMOU. After that,, we watch TV till Ivan(host) and KeeYi come. Yeah!! Everybody takes some of the things and go to the BBQ place. We leave our bags and stuffs.. and suddenly… we have problems like never bring tis and tat..

Well, God blessed, everything are solved. So, me, Ivan, KeeYi, KhoiMeng, ZhanHong and PeiSun decided to go for a swim.. We are swimming happily(at least I do).. Then.. Moky and John come. John then jump into the pool, started challenging others into swimming wif him. When nobody wans to, disaster come..

Simply say, he started offending me wif all kinds of so called jokes..i dunno he realized or not..but being mischief and pervert really piss me off..Thinking of ur sis and aunt Sally, how they’ve make my life alive.., I juz oblige myself to forgive u.. and of course take as if nothing has happened.. U should give thanks to the LORD as Michelle’s still wif u.. And thx a lot.. u really had destroyed my hope and day.
After swimming, all of us go up to have a BBQ session and ‘how to cook’ lesson by Miss Moky(future aunt Sally). Haha!! Then, we BBQ happily.. Out of the blue., it rains heavily.. wif strong winds blowing off our plates and cups. U guys won’t believe this. OPY can juz take as if she’s living in the peaceful world where nothing bad happens.. which is like “Its only me and my PSP” thg, u see??

I then take a look around me.. and look at the dark sky.. I knew something bad will happen today. True enough, I’m force, again, to go back early at 9pm even though Easter Cantata practice was cancelled. 9.30pm oso tak boleh. Also wif the reason that they(my parents) nid to sleep EARLY. Guess wat? I reach home, and they slept LATE… about 10++pm!! I really dun understand.. Worse is I’m treated coldly by most of them.

By adding tis condition and the way John treated me.. It’s enough to drive me into depress.. Making my day a GLOOMY, POIGNANT and MISERABLE DAY..~. So, in order to solve my prob, I went to sleep earlier than expected. Perhaps, I should oso thx John for tat.. make me sleep EARLY so that I dun sleep during worship. Btw, I dun expect any apologies from anyone.. But John, pls change ur attitude for a better future. U should learn to RESPECT more(u know wat I mean)..

Before I sleep, I did honestly pray that God will 4giv my sins and those who sins against me. I pray too tat u guys will have as much fun as u guys can/could coz I dun wan ppl to be like me.. can’t enjoy my very last moment… I tell u.. even IF WEEKEAT come., I’ll juz act normal.. Juz take him in.. I dunno bout KeeYi.. Tis is wat I can say. Oh ya!! To Moky: do u get any stomachache after drinking SARSIVAN? And anyone eat the “SPECIAL CHICKEN” prepared by IVAN?? Apart from everything, thx to you and KhoiMeng for planning tis party and invited me. I felt like I’m in a family for awhile. Thx ALOT!!

Stress.. And Psycho...

2009-04-02T19:49:00.000-07:00

Haih... 2day got anugerah pelajar cemerlang... Boring... "Congratulations" to those who get it... Guys oni me, Hakim, Fassy, Iman, Tze Kitt, Jeremy, Julian, Khoi Meng, and Wei Jie.. Gals.. Joey and...

Since its so boring... The new counselor.. the man... Came in and do some test on us.. some psychology test.. sobsob.. I found out tat me and Hakim have the same critical stress.. on Emotional.. AND IMAN.. whoa.. 2 sections of CRITICAL.. I tell u.. the questions really make u terasa more then anythg...

Then, out of the blue... Hakim, Jeremy, Wei Jie and me turn out to be a add maths geek for like a while.. Everyone seems to be sooo rajin practising add maths.. Then, Koshella come to us and handed us 2pieces of PHYSICS papers. The exercises was all bout Chap2-Electricity. So, i redraw myself from the add maths group and do the PHYSICS thg. 1st paper easy(Thx to Anuar), 2nd hard(havent learn yet).

Also, now im in Makmal 2(sejarah period)... The latest F4 homeworks are like OMG!!! We have 52 SUBJECTIVE questions for PAGE1, 31 SUBJECTIVE questions for PAGE2, 4 SUBJECTIVE questions+(a,b,c,d,e for each question) from PAGE4->PAGE5 AND 2ESEI questions on PAGE6!!! OMG!!!!

So far, oni 2 of 5Gammaians have handed this and another student. It says in the paper: "GOOD LUCK!!" ..which is suppose to sound like "BAD LUCK!!". Of course, there's reward for who hand-in FIRST. Okay. Chow!!!

The Most Fascinating Event's About to Come...

2009-03-30T16:49:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah!! I'm going to be the easter Cantata pianist.. Haha.. Shock sendiri!! Trust me.. The songs are.. sooo geng!!! Haha...
Toolbook so.. hard and mafan in the same time.. Getting harder to use computer nowadays.. Thanks to SPM... haih....

The Day... Today.. RENEW!!

2009-03-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

Everything in this site is renewed... Haha(its obvious).. Except the blog posts of course... Well, if any of you who get to access this site... Pls inform ur friend who doesnt get to, to readd my blog link.. K?? Bye!!

Sick.. Sick.. But jokes and motivation comes in...

2009-03-25T00:26:00.000-07:00

Y ppl keep getting sick nowadays?? Even Ivan oso get sick.. First time see him take medicine.. The kind of panadol that dissolve into the water. It's exciting.. (nvr see be4 ma...)And today is soo boring... Everyday no teacher... Got oso the not-tht-fun teacher... Well, but i realize one thg that.. Pn. Rohana is a motivator.. Agree?? At least 5 Lambdaians agree... She had her own philosophy... plus the great/successful ppl's philosophies... Combining them do motivate us... Hmmm... lets say that she's a good teacher after all.. Oh ya! One more thing... Anybody have seen Cik Fadzelah get angry be4? I mean.. she loves to joke... noe? Always cheering the class... Weird, holding the cane oso she laughs.. Hahaha!!! LOL. XD

A Poem Dedicated for Friendship among Us.."Ours is such a cultivated friendship." Hope you guys like it... Comment in my CBOX. K?

2009-03-24T06:45:00.000-07:00

Here in the midst
of a lonely abyss
A single joy I find...
your presence in my mind.
Alone I dare not climb...
with you I reach new heights.
The tides of life run in and out, and are often very choppy
Look towards the horizon and know that your waters will be calm once more.
You are as delightful as daffodils or a purring kitten,
Let's get together soon,
cause friends like you make the world a special place!
Ours is such a cultivated friendship.

Life is a carnival of fleeting light and dance
but playing, living and laughing together can make it last.
Wonder of wonders is a friend like you!
We have a history,
the kind that reaches far into the past,
and promises that in the future we'll remain friends...
forever.
Here's wishing you, my friend, a world of wonder,
Cast the gift of a lovely thought
into the heart of a friend.
I'm so glad we're friends, again!
Ours is such a cultivated friendship.

Sometimes when we talk,
I begin to feel like so many things are still possible.
That it's OK to believe I can do the things I dream of.
A lot of times I feel so much better after spending time with you,
it's one of the reasons I'm glad to call you my friend!
Thinking of you and hoping you're staying out of trouble.
The stars are in your favor,
true hearts on your side!
Thinking of you with love today--
just like every day!
Ours is such a cultivated friendship.

Nestled in my special corner
I think of good times shared with you.
The sea can wash away
everything but the memories will last,
as ours is a friendship that plays like a symphony...
lasting wherever we are..
Our hearts bind together,
forming infinite bonds--
a never ending friendship.
You make my world a little brighter!
You are my family and my friend,
Ours is such a cultivated friendship.

Happy...

2009-03-22T01:22:00.000-07:00

Haha.. y am i soo happy..?? Coz i get to on9 nowadays to do my homeworks... as in putting a time wif my mom. haha.. cheering up!! Anyway.. Nearly finish my h.works.. haha... Ntg to say liao... Haih.. sry for the drama anyway.. It's ending..

Sigh... A "long day"...

2009-03-19T02:32:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! How r u guys doing?? Anyway, I wake up today.. at 8.15am(i think)... then sleep back till 8.30am... wake up again.. Bath.. drink 2 packets of cereal.. then.. guess wat? Off to skool.. to touch up some of my Seni Project... When i reached there, all i see's Intan and a group of Cheerleaders.. Gosh... can u imagine Mawar in Cheerleading???

Then, we waited for about an hour for others to come... Of course, we went up to the Seni room FIRST to prepare those Seni stuff... After tat, both of us search for Pn. Aslinda.. We searched like nobody business.. And got a news from someone tat Pn. Aslinda bersalin... Then, IN SHOCKED CONDITION, Intan ask the gal again... And she said maybe. For a while, Ustazah came and said she come to skool. We wry... while waiting for the late comers... Then, Nurul and a Japanese guy come... We discuss bout each others project.. Everyone draw so nice.. i think mine's the WORST.. haih... Then, PeiYuen... OR Reverse.. I forgot liao... Seems like PeiYuen's interested in talking to the Japanese guy. Juz tat she malu... Farhana.. come wif the Weird look like she's make-up. Time is clocking..., teacher still haven't masuk bilik Seni.. PeiYuen decided to chow... so does Nurul and the guy...

Suprisingly, teacher come.. Tat, really comforted us... She said she was in the bilik SU.. to kemaskini the exam stuffs.. Ok. then all three of us started doing our own works while listening to the songs from Farhana's hp, then Intan's, then mine. Basically, we are drawing some lukisan realistik following our own printed pictures.. The time's slow like tortoise.. Luckily, Intan have somethg to cheer us up.. She called Nurul for the Japanese guy's email.. Then while waiting for Nurul's reply, she called PeiYuen and ask her... Of course, she said YES!!! Then, the fun starts... Hehe...

Sigh.. 6 hrs in skool only drawing.. I can't take it anymore when my stomach started making noise... So i went to the condo to have my favourite Black Pepper mee!! Ya... everybody knows bout tis... Believe it anot, I add 2 plates and a cup of "Iced Tea"(Translate to canto urself). Then, go back to bilik seni and continue my works again... Till, 2.30pm.. Go back hme... I'm satisfy tat I ady finished my lukisan.. Juz tat I realize now tat the colour i coloured on my drawing wrong liao... Feel like crying now... But i dun care.. Juz modify them lah.. Takkan draw again rgt??

So, PeiSun.. I dun think tis's anyhow EMO to u, rgt? I'm cheering up ady.. despite of settling wif tat DRAMA, so to speak. I give u my word tat tis drama will settle soon, k? Or u want it to cont.. But if cont hor... SOMEBODY OUT THERE will insult The LORD again.. so how?? (Haih.. 1st time seeking advice from u...). Reply on my CBox, ya?? Bye!!

Taylor's College...

2009-03-16T07:19:00.000-07:00

Haih.. today.. Set wrong alarm.. 5.30am woke up.. Crazy.. I thought i'm late. lol. Then, sleep again... Woke up again at 7.15am... Bath and bla3... Went down... to living room.. Wear my socks and the rest. Chow to skool.!! Almost everythere ady except few of them.. I went up to the class and took my sej paper.. Juz to finish Cik Fadzelah's work.. But it's too much.. How leh? Then.. everybody lk so yeng wif jeans.. haha... The talks on 1st impression very gd. The options after SPM oso gd. But im still on my boat.. sailing to nowhere... anyway.. moving on after cumin back to skool.. i went for tuition and tat.. non-stop... haih.. so tired...

Saya telah di"Bingkai Gambar"..

2009-03-15T04:51:00.000-07:00

Wat the hell? Framed? I certainly dun accept tis.. Who's ababoom, huh?! Are u from the underworld? lost? Haih.. aiyo... why i always jadi decoy de?? so zharm.... others cannot meh.? choose ivan and see la..(jkjk) i tau la.. i kurang on9.. tapi tak perlulah guna nama gua..!!! brengsek!! see? make me kasar liao... luckily, i tak say the F word.. cemarkan my name oni... I on9 oso in skool.. during duty hours.. if i have a chance.. not like u on9 tak habis2... on9 saja buat kerja tak berfaedah... Saya tak berhak menghukum kau.. tapi Tuhan akan... (ei? Y suddenly bm de?)

Ahermm!! I hope u'll stop tis.. devil!! Pls dun feel hurt coz u're a devil, followers of Lucifer.!. do u know how satan works? read ur 'God words' u ungodly ppl!! I bet u dun even plead for forgiveness... coz ALL THE WHILE U R A SINNER... and a SINNER are earthly followers tat do not understand tat sooner or later u will be split, a chasm will befall on u... like the distance b'tween hell and heaven...!! Like i say.. i can't punish u.. im only a human.. God will. Tis time.. u should be praying for forgiveness... AND MEAN IT!!

Till then, i will kip to God's word: "He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,... to comfort all who mourn." Isaiah 61:1-2 (Dun wry.. i bukannya nak mati...)

Haih.. How many times i've to emphasize???!!! I'm going to say the truths RGT NOW!!!

2009-03-11T00:43:00.000-07:00

Ppl change according to time.. Even i oso change.. I'm not the old DERRICK who used to be disturbed and bullied anymore. I make my decisions and follow them. Ivan's not the OLD IVAN u guys know.. lazy.. Now he has change a lil' become more hardworking. KeeYi.. still the same but worse. Joey.. speechless(dun dare to say). Moky.. Very 'spoiled egg'(in canto).. KhoiMeng semakin fat hau.. for some reason. ZhanHong.. I get more info bout places from him. WeeKeat oso.. i should say.. somethg's wrong wif him... Nik.. OMG... The Intan's gang.. more friendly than last year.. HonHerng.. Ikut Fassler for one reason tat everybody knows... Hakim and Idhzan.. oso better.. at least to me.. than last time.. JulianYee.. gd to me oso.. for some reason. TzeKitt.. dunno wat to say.. JeremyLui.. "Joey, u know...".. Khairil.. uhmm.. As dead as robot expression.. WeiJie.. pursuing his IT-ness in watever thg he do.. DerekLee.. kinda bad and gd in certain aspects... Geetha and the gang.. pretty gd. oso... SookKwan and Rowena.. always in their DREAM BOAT... ImanPratama.. uhmm.... too much of socializing... for some reason.. KeiYan and the gang.. "colder" nowadays... Last but not least.. Fassy.. Still the same.. but change a lil', i could say.

Ok. I've said enough.. I apologize for anythg i've said tat hurts u guys here. Well, tis's the oni way. Since i can't and i dun say the "F" word to anybody. And if u would like to comment on me., juz say or tell them in front of me OR IF u DUN WAN, juz write it on my CBOX. K???

The new face....

2009-03-05T17:12:00.000-08:00

Haha... Everybody today looks new... I see KeeYi in Love NOT wif HUMAN BUT wif SONGS!! David Archuletta's Song!! Plus... Ivan wif new Add Maths face.., Which is impossible last time... Zhan Hong wif calculator-clever face. And ME, wif my genius face.. Jokingla... Sleepy face... coz sleep late marh... Haih... Basicly.. im waiting for the G-A-A-Y-A's BDAy!!! Can't wait to EAT!!!! HAPPY EARLY BDAY GAAYA!!!

Life on The Moon( A Sad Life) - Why?? Till When You Wanna Hide from me??!! Am I not Good Enough?! Juz Tell me Straight into My Eyes!!! I begged u....

2009-03-04T00:00:00.002-08:00

I wake up in the morning as usual... Went to skool... And waited at the corner... Nothing less or more... I saw a mother hugging her daughter sooo tightly.. I wander why? Do u ever think why?

Every hugs may be the last hug... Well, like it or not.. we dunno when we'll die.. Touch wood.. we might die tomoro or after.. anytime.. without us realizing it.. Death can swipe us faster than anything else.. For example.. You can kill an ant juz by stepping on it. PIAKK!! There, the ant dies during its journey to its nest.

Perhaps it is now for us to think that love comes first. Some might not agree wif me.. for some reason.. BUT! I know.. our life's not as long as those ppl last time.. Like Abraham and his fellow descendants.. Coz of our sins.. God have shorten our life span.. Let me ask some question. Do u love someone before anyone else or perhaps more than yourself? Do u ever hug him or her? Have u ever have someone that you juz take as a petbro, petsis or your kaikor, kaimui or et cetera? Did everything went well from top to bottom?

I've seen enough.. And experienced this... The results may vary depending on individuals.. The person.. I've been wif juz a couple of weeks, the relationship when well for few days coming to a week.. Hmmm... Then, it went slightly out of the line... Something's wrong.. I dunno why.. Every question i throw to him seems to get a positive ans, WHICH i suppose its not an HONEST ANS. Takkan everythg oso positive.. rgt? Pasti ada negative.... It seems like i'm a ghost(invisible) in front of him... Whether there's someone around me anot. He oni layan the ppl around me, not me. When i ask why? Ans is "Nothing la.. Lazy to talk oni ma.." or "Lazy to think." Wat?! This's nonsense! That means Rajin to talk to others la?! IS IT?!

After a few days.. some particular problem persisted.. Complicated till i dun wanna tell. I've told him to change, as motivation., although i know it won't work.. But i got the scolding, so to speak, from him. Of course, i did call up for apology and the comfortable yet masked-ans came out from that his mouth. "Ntg. I'm tat sui hei meh??" Thanks... tat's so "comforting".. Then i read KeeYi's blog.. Something strikes me... I dunno why... Whenever i think bout it.. It strikes me.

Well.. I never like tis in our relationship... Plus.. I realized ppl are getting further from me... Even in my life.. Relative.. Friends... Close ones.. All of them getting further and further.. Am i tat monstrous?? Ppl.. why can't u juz tell me bout my mistakes or probs? Now i start to und the concept of living... The masked of life.. Always lying to faces... The "imperfect" smile... the "comforting" words.. and so on. It has never been true in my life that somebody is honest wif me.. Everything comes with an intention.. Some "backboned" words...

PPL!! JUZ TELL ME WAT U DUN LIKE BOUT ME AND DUN HIDE IT!!! ITS VERY PAINFUL!!!(may be, oni some of u will know this feelings of mine...) :(

THX TO U!!! LIES COVER ME!!!

2009-02-28T08:18:00.000-08:00

Thx to u... I dun feel tis WORLD can be TRUSTED anymore... Unless... Grace is on u that forgiveness may pass.... My life will continue wif mask; fakeness..lies!!!

Sry..KaiKor...

2009-02-26T07:46:00.001-08:00

I din't mean to do this... But it's complicated... I dun look like me when i'm under "Xtra" condition... Hope that it will not be hurtful to your heart... SRY>>>>>.........

HAih.... Happy... and boring..

2009-02-25T00:32:00.000-08:00

Today.. me and KaiKor and Pei Yuen in class... Sweep floor... everyone GO BACK EARLY!!!

ATTENTION!!!(Pei Yuen, Kee Yi, Moky, Khoi Meng, Zhan Hong, Ivan Chew)

2009-02-23T07:05:00.000-08:00

HEY LAMDAIANS!! REMEMBER TO CHECK YOUR MAIL FOR THE KERJA AMAL PICS... AND I'VE EXCLUSIVELY INCLUDED OUR LAMBDA-BLEACH SHOTS AND POWERPOINT PRESENTATION. IF IT'S NOT IN UR MAIL, PLS PASS ME UR PENDRIVE SO THAT I CAN TRANSFER THEM IN THE LIBRARY ON WEDNESDAY! Any question u guys can call me or SMS me. Talk in skool oso available. CHOW FIRST!!

Worst day of Intervensi 1...

2009-02-17T23:17:00.000-08:00

Wat?! ICT, Sejarah, Physics?! All the mind-blowing subjects?? but I'm surprise... Sejarah is much more easy than i thought.... For objective of course... subjective can kill if nvr study... I can't believe there's ppl copy for Moral... Haih.. the truth bout him... Oh ya.. Watch out ppl... Especially when u're in library.. U'll nvr know when i'll "PMS"....

Exam... Intervensi 1...

2009-02-17T04:52:00.000-08:00

Chemist was as "easy" as XYZ.... Add Maths oso the same... no diff... Can't belief my counter exceeds ivan's... Lolx. Nvr even update.... Miracle. 2molo Sej, IT and Physics.. Killing subjects... Y la like this.?. Summore all bout Form4 and a lil' Form 5. Plus, I can't imagine maths are sooo EASY...!!! We should say thank you to the government!! Ok.. Sumbody pls tell WAT IS WRONG WIF THE WORD "BRO"??!! Got to go... by ppl!! I'll try to write more next time!!! Sayonara~

HapPy NeW YeaR!!(Bad year for those F5 :-()

2009-01-04T05:32:00.000-08:00

Haih.. sry ppl... Can't on9 nowadays coz SPM approaching... Now oni on9.. last i guess... Haha anyway, HapPr New YeaR to you guys.. New year new resolutions ya?? So, let us look forward in everything that we do. Lolx. I'm not spending my HAPPY HOLIDAYS well though.. as i'm facing a sudden double allergies attack... Weird huh?? They juz hard to handle... Have to take Curam(antibiotics), some Zvrtec(anti-allergy), and Panadols.... Sad... Gtg now... Stop here 4 now... Bye!!

Pn. Noraini and her Grand Send-Off....

2008-10-30T18:28:00.000-07:00

Lolx. Today is Pn. Noraini's send off. Means we are having new pengetua coming.... In the same time... as usual.. ppl.. you guys ponteng again... I only see a group of Farah's gang, Suhaida, Nik, Mawar, me myself... So sry Khairil, Sze Kitt and Wei Jie... I can't see you guys... Coz u're not in class....
Oso.. i'm having my sore throat. Sobsob.. Puasa for today.. Canteen food tak boleh makan... Actually got pudding.. tapi i takut Melamine larh.... haih...
Oh ya!! A pantun for Pn. Noraini...

Bunga kembung menanti hari,
Hari indah sudah sampai,
Pn. Noraini hendak pergi,
Lambaian kasih kami sampaikan.

It's just nothing... May be some meaning.. If you get it... HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Uhm... WAssup?? Chatting??

2008-10-20T18:17:00.000-07:00

Lolx... wat a disgrace.. everybody ponteng school... not all i mean... majority... maklumlah. phase 1 exam is over... At the same time... Merit and Dimerit system is troubling all librarians.. Blacklist system next year??? Students are not going to like it. Can u imagine derrick doing briefing for discipline??? Well, that's juz planning.. not yet come true.. probation's continueing.... I'm still wandering in the realm of abyss.... haih.... No idea wat am i saying. Ivan, KeeYi and ZhanHong ponteng again.. as usual.... Hehe...

Wat a Relieve.....

2008-10-15T22:52:00.000-07:00

YES!!! Exam's over!!! For phase 1.... I'm waiting for phase 2.... (Do I look like I am???) Anyways, Chemistry paper 3 is kinda easy, Maths also... Haih... really got nothing to say o.... Juz cross my finger that I'll get good results this time... Oh ya!!! People.. promoting PETRA Event of the Year... The Apprentice. U are welcome to our carnival... I'll tell u the details if u wan... call 019-2878613 for more details. Got games, food and lots more!!! Very Fun!!! Tweens, u guys are welcome too... All of u!!! Since it's after our 1st. phase exam, it's worth coming to relax yourself!!! If u wanna ask anything, leave me a comment in my CBOX and I'll reply u in my CBOX. OK??? GOOD DAY EVERYONE!!!!!

Whoa.. The Boring-est Day Ever!!!!! (V.I. Driving The Sound!!! So COOL!!!)

2008-10-07T23:29:00.000-07:00

Hmm... today is the most boring day ever... for those who tak layak terima Sijil Koko...(i'm included.. dun laugh). Sitting in the class.., doing ntg..(sum of them) or rather resting/sleeping soundly... A sleepy day wif Our Lambda Event - The Sleeping Carnival. Yup!!! Geetha and her gang nvr come... ZhanHong and KeeYi oso "sick"... Oni me, Ivan and WeeKeat and few others who are IN THE CLASS. Understand??? There are 14 who came, and only 5 survive. The rest, so sorry... ur journey ends here. Take the torch and go back home!!! Lolx.

Basically, Victoria School really rocks in their pancaragam. ^.^ Can't blame them.., pingat emas for marching.. Well, Aja got overwhelmed by those cutie boyz(yyerr... bulu roma naik ady...). She repeated that for few times which drive my ear to total numbness...swt... However, I like their performances.. Very coordinate, organized and teamwork can be seen through them. Uniform pun cantik!!! So COOL!!! Sebab I suka biru ma.... HAHA!!! -.-""

All of sudden Kok Mei Li... Comes out with her fleksible body... Turning here and there... catching her on-air stuffs. I'm juz shock by her perfect performance. Well, she got her best Penerima Sijil Koko Terbaik..(That's obvious.. She's an Intenational Gimnastic Athlete...) - Got her picture stick in the SBU and SMKSBU School.... Brava!!! (Dun use Bravo... It's only for male.) Overview, today is quite boring and great in the same time. Probably the best Anugerah Koko Event for so many years i'm in this school - Two Thumbs Up!!!

Precious Hair... Loser Hair....

2008-10-07T23:24:00.000-07:00

Pity KeeYi... Juz a flash back... Hair kena cut by the new PJ teacher.. Lovely! wasn't it?? I wander wat he did in return of the lost of his hair... Buat baik dibalas baik, buat jahat dibalas jahat... Lolx... jking la... Nvrmind, I suggest u to use the Pantene or Sunsilk.., either one, which have the effect of making your hair longer.. HAHAHAHA!!!!!

2/10/08 - Day of Rememberance and Study Group Activities

2008-10-07T01:49:00.002-07:00

Haih... Today we study add amths and sejarah... And.., thx to KeeYi, wait for him like waiting for a tortoise oni... We, haih... paiseh nak cakap..., we went to CC and for my 1st time, DotA!!! Funnyla... Alwayz lose... KeeYi and ZhanHong team lawan me and Ivan. Haha... KY and ZH keep aiming Ivan, everybody's favourite?? Agree???(bluek!!) Well, we then went back to our study place, Pandan Lake. Our next step were to take a look at the Snooker Centre. Well, when me, ZH and Ivan first checked, it was closed, but now, it was opened. So, wat do u think?? Mestilah main!!! We took our first game on bowling. Whoa.. Tell u oso tak percaya.. KY keep getting high score.. That guy was great man!! As usual, KY was the 1st, ZhanHong 2nd, Ivan 3rd and sigh 0_0..last was me.. -.-""

Then, we decided to play another game.. Snooker!! Haha!! This time, i'm the pro!! Can u believe it? 5:4or5. This was the highest score among 4 of us!! After ZhanHong and KeeYi lawan, then me and Ivan's turn pula. Btw, i din't know ZH had a "son". Lolx... >.< Just a joke at the playground. It happen when he sat on the playground slide, then suddenly that lil' guy appear from behind him just inside the slide. This was just L.O.L. I'm sure i'll never forget this. Friends 4eva!! Everything was great today!! God blessed and Praise Him!!!

As Usual....

2008-09-25T20:44:00.000-07:00

Going IT.... In the lab.... Do nothing... Blogging... See KeeYi and Zhan Hong DotAing... Today, Pn. Rohana never come. Pn. Rosita so good... let me and Koshela enter her room... To find the Statistics Exercise... for me and KeeYi. Oh ya... Lambdaians... Pls don't be sooo... lazy!!! Lolx. Where's Hakim??? Ish... Mr. Tengku haih.. I wanna watch...

BORING..... JULIAN SAW ME EATING IN CLASS!!! OMG!!!

2008-09-24T01:19:00.000-07:00

Haha.... Weird... Julian tak tangkap me?!!! Tapi berbahasa melayu pula???? Apalah.... Sad... Keeyi kena.... Ivan terselamat last time... Swt..... Thx Julian!!!

DIZZY-DAZZY PUZZLE

2008-09-24T00:56:00.000-07:00

by Ricky.
How many alphabet “Z” can you find here??? Look for it from every side. To Ivan, if you can find this, it proof that you are NOT OLD. Can you??? LOLX.

COMPLETE THE UNCOMPLETE SENTENCES – (…..)

2008-09-24T00:55:00.002-07:00

I like to ….. I always do ….. I will ..… Then ..… I ..… Finally, I must ………
Lolx. See what can you right. Joke??? Haha! We’ll see… Try to complete them by writing me a comment. Thx!!

Haih…. WAT THE???? HANDSOME??????

2008-09-24T00:55:00.001-07:00

Wat is your problem Ivan??? Tak handsome cakap handsome. Always remember: Like wat your “family” said, “Ivan, you are cute. Not handsome. Huh? Both oso don’t want??? Then, you are old.” Hahahahaha!!!!!!

SHORTEST AND MEANINGFUL BLOG

2008-09-24T00:53:00.001-07:00

Hi …???!!!
[Meaning: “Hi…” (straight forward) “Hi???” (Tanya khabar) “Hi!!!” (Hello happily) Lolx.]

PYP BEST!!!

2008-09-24T00:47:00.000-07:00

YO BRO AND SIS!!!! How is everybody doing??? Haha… I bet you people still question, wat’s PYP PRODUCTION???? Right??? Let me tell you. It’s the BEST Youth Program I’ve seen and know. Okay, I join the program too. We have groups, group points, outing, singing, sports event, creative event, amazing race and a lot more!!! Currently, we will be having Amazing Race Finale. I tell you this will BE FUN!!! Oh ya! Don’t believe me?? Watch our videos below. Created by us!!!

GROUP MOSES = Commander Jason

GROUP JOSHUA = Commander Ernest

GROUP SAMUEL = Commander Robin
Video
GROUP GIDEON = Commander Cyrus
Video
Nice eh??? Tunggu apa lagi?? Wanna join?? Tell me in my comment in this BLOG!! Thx!!!

MARRIAGE

2008-09-24T00:44:00.000-07:00

Hmm… lets see…. Talking bout marriage… Wat’s up wif it??? Ask me, and I’ll say Uncle Harry and Aunty Melissa!!! Why?? Basically, they juz wed I think 1 month ago. (Lolx. It’s long ago. I know…) My thong gor, David and Lydia.. Haha I know I know…. It’s him again…. I’ve nothing to say actually… Go dinner makan banyak – banyak… as usual… Come on, you all know me, rgt?? High metabolism, makan macam gunung, tak gemuk-gemuk pulak.. Some of you sure jealous…. Lolx. Oh ya!! I only able to get these pictures.. The rest? I can only say BOTH WED it’s THE BEST!!! Why??? That’s because God Blessed!!!

PICTURE COMING SOON.........

UNITY IN FRIENDSHIP

2008-09-24T00:42:00.000-07:00

Hey People!!! Long time no see!! (See??) Haha… Since I’ve not update my blog, I hope you guys forgive me. Haih.. mafan only. Do you know?? I actually update this blog coz of my friends. Get it??? I’m forced.. Sobsob… :C Lol. Joking. Anyway, ish… memang nothing to say…. Uhmm…., so, let’s talk about friends. Have you hate your friends before?? Past or present?

Recently, I have few of my friends(can’t mention their name FIRST– incase they visit this blog. Who knows…) argue with each other. Well, it might be a small argue. I don’t really know. It have been weeks.. But what can I do as a friend??? Nothing. Swt.. I don’t even know why they fight… What a failure… Of course, I’ve witness this in my school and tuition. Only some who read this blog will know what am I trying to say. Faham-faham lah…. Bagi terasa sikit… So, ok. I’m not trying to say it cannot be solve… Coz I’m one of this people who hates my enemy which can last about weeks, if I’m not mistaken. My best friend, (can say so).. put that ugly video of mine on YouTube?? Can you actually imagine best friend stabbing you at the back??? He even told a lot of people about this. Entah mana nak letak muka saya… Sobsob. :C

During this time… I would like to express my gratitude to Brother David for consulting me(THX BRO!!). Don’t laugh people. Seriously, this was the only solution to prevent me from bursting like a balloon or volcano… whatever…. Well, some of you might know him.. And some might not. He’s kind, mature I should say… (dah kahwin ma…), also a good PR. He told me not to hate him. Lolx. Seriously, I don’t even know wat to do bout this. Kick him? He’s not a ball. Destroy him? I’m not a robot or something. Wet his belongings?? Hah!! I can think bout this. Okok.. Joking only… Tak pernah buat pun…. Jangan salah faham. Eventually.. I myself don’t like to keep a thorn in my heart and his. So, I SMS him. Well, that’s the only way…. Coz he’s in F1; somemore ulu place. Pity him… Haih, balasan gua… Hehe…

After some time…. He actually put down the video… I don’t even know that. Suddenly, the thorn in my heart was removed. Sigh… Then, friends 4eva again!!! Those who read this blog, unity among your friends are very important. Takkan you want to keep this vengeance or rock or thorn in your heart forever... Ei, “sei tou mm ngan pai.” Srry lah… Don’t know how to translate.. banana ma… Juz read it in Cantonese. Then you’ll understand. K?? I hope Adrian and Mun Kent… You guys will back together as best friends again. Without you guys, tuition is super quite.(Sry teacher… I think you notice right??) Also to Kee Yi and Wee Keat.. Please back to together again, basketball fellows. (To KeeYi: Don’t be stubborn.. don’t call people stubborn until you get this right, k?? WeeKeat is fine now.. What about you??) So, don’t let this tiny little things affect your friendships. If mine is that big prob (being posted on YouTube and let the whole school and world see??? Who knows A let B know and B let C know and so on…??), you guys are juz minor. Just a small misunderstood. Correct it. Always be optimize. Pray to God. That’s all. Pls don’t hate me for mentioning your name here… ;6 Peace people… ^.^

Dobre utra!!!

2008-07-30T17:41:00.000-07:00

Preve everyone!!! Sry ya... long time nvr update mine blog. Anyway, wait.. wat to say...? Uhm... so, let's talk about being a perfectionist... Are you the one??? Recently, my classmate... Ivan, is claiming to be "handsome" for some unreasonable reasons. As some of his friends and I know, he only have a sister. Normally, based on my research, if YOU are THE ONLY guy/boy in your family, excluding YOUR father, then you'll be

very,super PERASAN PPL!!!

Therefore, trying to be "perfect" than others is absolutely undeniable. Calling yourself cute, prety or handsome will not do... I'm also getting emo nowadays... Thx to one particular of my friends. So, nothing to say, I end my blog now... BYE!!

ANGEL Beside Me!!! YaHooo!!!

2008-07-02T17:04:00.000-07:00

Fiuhh~ After so long never update my blog... Finally.., This is the day. Alright, here it is. I feel like I'm blessed kao2!!! Yesterday, I have the blessings for the whole day. I am able to answer a few Very Hard questions about maths 'Circles III' in my tuition. That, STUNED everyone!!! Secondly, whoa.. my piano Grade 8 exam pieces... Unimaginable!!! First time so geng...!!! FANTASTIC!!!

I also eat with my friends. The food at the Taman Shamelin Condominium.. Mmm~~ Very delicious!!! I got my friend tuning the guitar for me. Haha~ I don't know how to listen and don't have the tuner thing.
But, all this things kjust act as a supporter to cheer me up. Grieve incidents do pass by day by day... All cause of the Formula 1 project. Dear readers, sensitiveness and emo-ess is bad for your health and relationship.
So, that's it for today. Please be patient and wait for my next post!! In the meantime, enjoy yourself and please leave some comment. Thx folks!!! :P

Happy Birthday to "Tortoise" ~~ Exam is like MIASMA!!!! // Friends Forever??

2008-06-10T05:54:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday "Tortoise"!!! Well, today is SUPPOSE to be a happy day... BUT.. Like I've said, exam's like miasma. They are never good. That History marks "kill" most of my class member... I'm not excluded. I really don't understand... I often get that "mostro" marks!!!!

Another thing is that we alwayz think that our marks is very low, padahal people's marks is lower than us.. (That's the bright side)!! Let's see, the dark side... This reminds us about our parents... No matter what, some particular parents memang like to compare some of us with those Super-genius class.. Like it or not, we all share the same side.

How many of you can give a definite definition of 'Friends Forever'? Do you actually agree that a friend should be radical, huggable, supportive and mathematical? Listen to this.. :-

"A friend should be radical. He/she should be an awesome

friend that you chose as a choice in life.

A friend should be huggable. He/she should hug you

even the whole world throw stones at you.

A friend should be supportive. He/she should be supporting you when the whole world boos at you.

And a friend should be mathematical. He/she should multiply the loves, divide the sorrows, plus/add the joy and substract/minus the revenge(s)."

Original by KLBC,

Edited by Derrick Chan, PETRA.

So? What do you think? Are your friend(s) the kind of friend I mention up there? Lolx. Recently, KLBC(Kuala Lumpur Baptist Church) group of teenagers went to my church, PETRA Gospel Center, to perform their 'Friends Forever Musical Drama'. I kinda enjoy the show.. But only some part of the acting is not really good.. Anyway, 'Friends Forever' for me means a friend that can hold on to you whenever you are, trustful, share their sorrows and happiness with you and manners in relationships. Manners here mean that he/she don't simply leave you when they suddenly have another conversation, no matter important or not.

If you notice your girl-friend, you can alwayz see problem(s) in them. Seriously, I've had a lot of girl-friends. Everytime I see them, haih... 50% chances problem persist. Lacrimoso... this is what happens to our younger generations... Okay, do not say I'm "number 8"/ busybody.. I'm just concern.. I care about my friends, talk with them, be a counselor to them and share our sorrow(s) and bliss. Worst still, I sometimes become the "kambing hitam" in their fight or conversation. This is poignanting... I'm just trying to help... Sobsob....

By the way, as a friend, we must be responsible in our friendship ties.. or else, you are going to be a "best friend".. may be you are., but only exist as konon... To "Tortoise", I still owe you half a present as the other half was given through God words.. Guess you need a Bible... Lolx!!! Have a nice day people!! (By the way, I'm still craving for comments...)

I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS!!! Weird psychic power??

2008-06-04T07:01:00.000-07:00

Swt... Waiting for the arival of my cousin and his family was really hard.... What is wrong with them??? Seriously.. My bro and I keep peeping through the transparent sliding-door... JUST to SEE whether or not, they are here.... Sigh.... Never been like this before. Again.., I'm getting tired of playing the same game... Can you imagine my situation...??

Another thing is..., WALKING back home from my far away tuition... Under the rain?? Come on.. this is insane! Well..., then I found out one of my friend... Adrian Wong. He's very kind and surprisingly, offer his help for me to tumpang... (First time heard this....) Seriously, I can't believe my ear also, when he replied my SMS saying: "I'm glad to receive your message... if u have any problem just call me..." OMG!! I'm glad to have you, bro, as my friend.
Ordering pizza for two times in one week? What do you think? Recently..., I'm growing more pimples than before and my brother had been growing fatter.. Even he himself notice that... I really feel like going to school... but, it's not the time yet... We played the duet song. Neh.., the song where Jay Chou and the Girl play together in "The Secret" movie. It turn out kinda okay.. I can say. Also, we have to practice more. Who knows? One day, our piano teacher might ask us to perform again! Can't blame us.. our first performance was in one of the residen's house at Kenny Hill... We earn RM200, each RM100. We also get to eat their DELICIOUS HOME MADE COOKIES!! And their lemon tea really made me feel like drinking somemore... (To be honest, I really hate lemon tea at first...Swt..) So COOL!!
Holidays are also coming to an end for me.. Exam results is coming out... Trust me, they are monsters!!! Some say exams are use to test your knowledge or understanding on those subjects that you've learned. But I personally think.. that they are the monster that destroy our happiness...(if you dun get good result)... They also act like miasma in our student environment.. "Polluting" us... This thing, I can say... sometimes depend on individual... If you think they are genius for you, then mai go for it lo.... Don't say I never warn you.. Exams can be categorized as insalubrious. Why?
Simply say, the reason is because they can cause destructions or obliterations.... Think about it. If this particular generation or group of contemporaries keep their eye-to-book style of life.., then this whole country will be entirely clever. BUT, in contrast, the fun in this world will decrease in level.. What I mean is .. those shows, cartoons, anime and those Disney shows will turn to facts and news from day to day!!! Can you imagine?? Watching news at every hour?!?!?! Sigh... lacrimoso....
Anyway, please don't get to obsess with my so called prediction... That is what I think.. sometimes.. Have you or did you sometimes feel like talking or voicing out your idea(s)/thoughts but there's nobody to voice out to? Well, I face this somehow... Very very bad... The solution is... maybe, talking to yourself... Don't get mistaken by this "talking to yourself" words... I mean talk to yourself in your heart and make a reply in your heart.. Try doing this... It is quite hard to do but a little practice will make it all fine. Sometimes, doing this can hide the true feelings of an individual. You know, for some reason, you don't wanna get others to know your sadness....
I don't know.. I can be happy.. very happy at one time and turn out to be very moody.. due to some illogical reason-when the weather turns to raining or the cloud turn dark, this feeling.., a bad one will come.. By the way, my weird feelings act like a psychic power in me!! When this bad feelings come, bad things will happen to me... I'm not lying here!!! This is serious!!! Okay, I think it's time for me to stop now.. Maybe, I'll write more next time when I have the time... *Remember to leave some comments ya!! Bye!!!

Yay!!! MEGA FUN!!!! ~~~ RESPONSIBILITY COMES...

2008-06-03T00:42:00.000-07:00

Boring is never boring today........ Well, first time... Parents not at home plus sister... My bro and I are having our so called party by enjoying ourself- Playing games... Never get this before!!! This was so fun!! Kalau tak melancong pun tak apa... As long as boleh main game... Lolx.

Anyway, cousin brother is coming too... Fun will be MEGA!!! Also, playing dotA without being disturb was indeed the BEST FUN!!! As expected, my mom was busy in my hometown, Perlis... so tak alwayz call la.... Hehe.. Haih.. but keep playing the same game also makes me feel

kinda sien leh.... -.-"

Maybe, for you, it's normal having this fun... But for me .. its once in a blue moon(once a while)... Kinda pity some of my friend... have to STUDY cause got exam... Kesian betul..... By the way, sooner or later.. I'll have to finish my assignment together with my friend... Hmm... have to plan that food sale program....

Planning is quite fun... you know, especially when you hold a post/rank!!

As the setiausaha(BM)/secretary(BI), I carry kinda big responsibility... People look high on me?? Not really.... But respect? Okay la.. Didn't see anybody like me... Soooo semangat food sale.... AND after the food sale... I might be claiming back my lost-item money... Just for those painting stuff... Menyusahkan betul!!!

I kinda miss a lot of camp nowadays.... Also, thanks to my tuition.. it "helps" a lot. Yeah... Have to carry my responsibilty well.... this year,... to ensure good marks... in my school... Join more.., participate more next year to get certificate.... I don't understand... why government make it so mafan??? Just to get scholarship also VERY susah...!!! Haih.. triste...

Last but not least... I have to tell..., as a son and student even daughter... We must carry out our responsibility well... so that others may follow our good footsteps... This is a teaching that everybody must learn... ALTHOUGH, in your brain, there's only one thing...

MEGA FUN!!! XD +.+

Oh!!! This is dreadfully BORED!!!!!

2008-06-01T08:11:00.000-07:00

Again… a day pass…, this is so boring… I wonder you face any of my problem – Wash plates, vacuum floors, dotA (again…), practice piano, and etc. I tell you.. not all guyz will face this… Okay.. I admit, I lead a boring life…. everybody agree.

Currently, I am force to read my KPP (Kurikulum Pendidikan Pemandu) book, by my MOM! (Of course, I myself don’t really read it… that much. It’s seriously like Sejarah.) Everyday; approximately every minute, every hour and every time I’m trying to get some rest!!! What is wrong with those adults nowadays?! You people are very.. "LONG GAS"... Swt… Do you agree??? (Please write it as your comment…)

Can you imagine?? Eat by boredom almost for 2 weeks holidays??? My friends have been going out with friends BUT ME?! Haiz… Staying at home… suffering I should say… This is VERY WRONG!!!! Of course, they ajak me along… but I say, “Hey bro, you know how my mom will react to this, right?” Well, obviously… She is the love-to-read kind… Who always enjoy and loves to study!!! Can parents try not to be like "this" or TURN THEIR CHILD to be like "this"???!!! (Parents, if you read this… Please don’t get upset… Cause this is the fact…)

That’s what happens in our world today… You can’t deny about it…. Parents nowadays just cannot see their child senang… You can guarantee that. If not, why they keep asking us to study, when we are free?? Another thing is, when you open this question to them, their “reasonable” and “perfect” answer will be “Haih.. son/daughter, you must study hard so that you have a better future…etc.” I know….. but, no matter what.. we are still young.. This fun is actually temporary for us… Forget what they say… “Wait till you work one day, then you can play your game and have fun but not now. Okay?”

Do you think we, young generation have this time to play when we work?? Don’t tell me when you come back from work, you don’t have assignments and house stuff…?? Haih… This is a very sensitive issue… I must warn you people who read this… DON’T BE TOO SENSITIVE!!! THIS IS JUST AN OPINION…
I’m sorry if this hurt you or what. So sorry… Didn’t mean it.

Cooking Not Suitable for Men???

2008-05-30T07:10:00.000-07:00

Basically..., I've heard a lot of comments about men. But out of so many, I only found out that.... always when they are ask to cook..., the only question they blurt out is "Cooking?? Me?? I'm a guy.. Hello???" Yup... That's what they say.So, do you think cooking is not suitable for men??

Franktly speaking, I think men must learn to cook. If you say no, then let me ask you- What will happen to you if your wife get sick??? Takkan you go buy food to eat? What if the place or the stall/restaurant is far far away from your house? Think again.

Apart from that, men that cooks will reassure their girlfriend that they are capable in doing something that people don't think they can do it. See?? It is proven also that men is a much more PROFESSIONAL chef than women. (no offence women... It's the truth...) I mean come on..., look for yourself.... look around you... Don't you realise that those chef... be it in stall or restaurant, are all men???

Here's shirtless chef (still, a man..)

Another Pro-Chef!! Sorry... VERY HARD TO FIND WOMEN CHEF!!! LOLX.

And their cookings?? Mmm.... Bravo!!! Finger licking good!!! Trust me... they can even make perfect fried chicken... Muacks!!! If I'm not mistaken, those Kentucky Fried Chicken recipe was found out by a man!!! Can't blame us... we boys and men are the first to be created!!!

Oh ya!!! If you wanna learn how to cook?? Haha.. First, learn how to cook RICE and PORRIEGE from YOUR MOM!!! Then, learn how to FRY EGG with ALL SORTS OF INGREDIENT!! Lastly, hehe.... make yourself a Plate of Mee or Fried Rice.... OK??

Hope you learn something today... Bye!!!!!

Bonjour!! Welcome to My Blog!!!

2008-05-29T05:20:00.000-07:00

THIS IS ME!!!

Hello people!! I'm Derrick... 16 years old... Studying in SMKSBU since 2004... till now. Haha.. I love to play piano..., listen to songs..., play some games... Oh ya!!! My favourite idol is ROGER KWOK CHUN ON (Guo Jin An)!!! (You might not know...) He is a GREAT ACTOR!!! Haha... and a GOOD SINGER!! He can act in almost all kinds of show!!! He is the BEST ACTOR and LEADING ACTOR in LIFE MADE SIMPLE and CURIOUS DETECTIVE/D.I.E. (Death Investigation Extention)!!!!!

THIS IS ROGER KWOK CHUN ON and CINDY AU SIN YEE!!! BOTH ACTOR and ACTRESS!!!

COOLEST GUY!!! GO ROGER KWOK!!

ROGER KWOK still HANDSOME eventhough he looks kinda nerdy...(no offence to Roger's fan and Roger.)

ROGER KWOK with A GIRL... I DUNNO WHO SHE IS .

So, ahermm!!! I love to create essays... the long one... those Malay essays... poems... I like them sometimes. Haha.. anyway, nice meeting you guyz.

One more thing! I love, Love and LOVE to listen to songs; Chinese, Malay and English song... AND Please help me..., IF you guyz find any song that's nice, please...., tell me, ESPECIALLY those TVB THEME SONGS!!! I love them!!!

By the way, here is my email: ** You can add me in your msn list!!! Share me something .., or even Send me a song!!! THX ya!!!!! xD

1. dragoonrick33@yahoo.com

2. dragoonrick33@hotmail.com